wednesday

so, i've been doing a great job of blogging this conference so far, obviously. um. other than a version of the Amazing Race with the teens this week (three sessions over five days), which is 30-minute blocks of intense insanity, i've been quite calm. getting nearly six hours of sleep a night, and kind of surfing through the days in a mostly relaxed state. i have that lovely feeling that if everything falls apart, it's not the end of the world and G-d knows what He's doing, and i don't have to impress anyone. it's wonderful to be able to trust Him that way, and it certainly is not my natural state. all of my events seem to come together while they're happening. almost everything i've planned has morphed significantly in the doing. when i mentioned that i felt i was flying by the seat of my pants to a friend, she pointed out that this is probably because i learned a lot about ministering in the former soviet union. hmm, good point. it's fun. it's certainly not as hard as organizing the ministry trips over there have been. that said, i still feel like i'm missing a lot... not only the "adult" events but more importantly the real connection with people i meet, &c. actually i've had quite a bit of it, which is great (and an answer to prayer), but i always want more. and it'd be lovely to have more flexibility to join in on random things at random times. now it's on to the biennial business meeting for the YMJA, where elections will be held and whatnot. i probably will just sit in the back and pray for the meeting through most of it. life is good.